Du bist schon, (:

 

Grades are finally coming up, not stressed anymore, i am happy again. (: Over the weekend Tyler was in the hospital because his lung collapsed, he had to have surgery and was in the hospital from Sunday to Wednesday. He is doing much better though and i Am happy. (: Tonight i am going to go see "Your a Good Man Charlie Brown" a musical that my school is putting on. I went last night with some friends but tonight its with the family. I'm excited but yet sad because i do not want the seniors to leave. We have a wonderful fine arts department because of them. I hate to say this but our play are going to go down the drain next year. :( Anyways time to get ready. (:

ps. My prom date is adorably cute and even though were going as friends i know your still jealous. (:

hello my name is mercedes, (:

 

Your up there in front of everyone, the spotlight is on you. One mistake and everyone will be talking about it. You have to read everything perfect, pronounce everything perfect, always smile, never look nervous. That is how i felt in front of everyone today. It was nerve wreaking. The funny thing is i loved it. Nerves going crazy, your Adrenalin is rushing! (: Plus Blain being up there helped me a lot. I love that kid. Now for tomorrow during the game, more people i don't know... Plus i wont be getting home until like Midnight. Who for STUCO. (: i love it. Today lets just say has been a really good day, still stressed like non-other though.

Weakness

      

         Ive been so stressed lately. My body cant handle it, today i woke up with the worst headache. So i was just going  to go into school late but when i woke back up for the second time i couldn't breath and hurt all over. No school for me. My grades are falling again, homecoming is coming up in two days, me and Blain have to do the speech tomorrow. Ugh just so much to do, so little time. I can't wait till this week is over.

It's a new day. (:

I have decided to go back to blogging, i need it. Its like one thing i can do to relieve some stress. Say things i usually wouldn't say. :) So a few days ago it was valentines day, and it kinda made me think about relationships more and more. You know everyone says high school is a place to have fun and not worry about boys, and i really believe that but sometimes i just wish i had someone to have, and hold. Its like everyone had someone to spend the day with, but me. My brothers always have their girlfriends over and we have a family dinner they eat with us and everything and i just wish i could have someone to bring home and eat dinner with, act stupid with, be able to look horrible and they will think i am still beautiful. I think that is why i liked him so much over the summer. That is exactly what a wanted.. i am Pathetic.